Truth or Dare?

1. I am a girl 
2. I have one older half brother and two younger sisters 
3. I hate living in Utah 
4. I danced for 11 years 
5. I LOVE my family! 
6. I made a ton of new friends this year :) 
7. I used to be friends with a girl who was suicidal 
8. I liked the same guy from the end of sophomore year, to the half of senior year (waste of my time/life) 
9. I haven't had my first kiss! #VL
10. I only have one grandparent alive. My grandma. 
11. I hate my job, but I love the people I work with 
12. My favorite holiday is Halloween! 
13. My birthday is October 23rd 
14. I have never seen Mary Poppins 
15. I am self conscious about the way I look 
16. I am excited, but really scared to graduate 
17. I have a dog 
18. My first dogs name was Cassidy 
19. I HATE the word moist..... #throwup 
20. I love to surf, wakeboard, and wake surf 
21. I love the movie Talladega Nights! And I watched it with the waste-of-time/life guy
22. My grandpa died the day before my 4th birthday 
23. My favorite number is 23  
24. I love Seinfeld  
25. I have ridden an elephant 
26. I am related to one of the queen Elizabeth's 
27. I am related to Butch Cassidy 
28. My other grandpa died on July 24th 
29. I love to serve others
30. My grandma died on Mother's Day 3 years ago 
31. I am sympathetic and empathetic 
32. I am 5'8 
33. I LOVE Hawaii 
34. Despicable Me is one of my favorite movies 
35. My grandma had Alzheimer's 
36. Vampire diaries is one of my favorite tv shows 
37. I love hanging out with my friends 
38. I hate being the center of attention 
39. I want to go to Europe more than anything!
40. I can't whistle
41. I am me, and that's all there is to it! 

Here's to Never Growing Up

Singing Radiohead at the top of our lungs
With the boom box blaring as we're falling in love
I got a bottle of whatever, but it’s getting us drunk
Singing here's to never growing up

Call up all our friends
Go hard this weekend
For no d*** reason,
I don't think we'll ever change

Meet you at the spot,
Half past ten o'clock
We don't ever stop,
And we're never gonna change

Say, oh just say forever, stay
If you stay forever, hey
We can stay forever young

Singing Radiohead at the top of our lungs
With the boom box blaring as we're falling in love
I got a bottle of whatever, but it’s getting us drunk
Singing here's to never growing up

We'll be running down the street, yelling kiss my a**
I'm like yeah whatever, we're still living like that,
When the sun's going down, we'll be raising our cups
Singing here's to never growing up
Oh woah oh woah here's to never growing up
Oh woah oh woah here's to never growing up

We live like rock stars
Dance on every bar
This is who we are,
I don't think we'll ever change

They say just grow up but they don't know us
We don't give a f*** and we're never gonna change

Say, oh just say forever, stay
If you stay forever, hey
We can stay forever young

Singing Radiohead at the top of our lungs
With the boom box blaring as we're falling in love
I got a bottle of whatever, but it’s getting us drunk
Singing here's to never growing up

We'll be running down the street, yelling kiss my a**
I'm like yeah whatever, we're still living like that,
When the sun's going down, we'll be raising our cups
Singing here's to never growing up

Oh woah oh woah here's to never growing up
Oh woah oh woah here's to never growing up

Say, won't you stay forever stay
If you stay forever hey
We can stay forever young

Ohhhhhhh

Singing Radiohead at the top of our lungs
With the boom box blaring as we're falling in love
I got a bottle of whatever, but it’s getting us drunk
Singing here's to never growing up

We'll be running down the street, yelling kiss my ***
I'm like yeah whatever, we're still living like that,
When the sun's going down, we'll be raising our cups

Singing here's to never growing up
Oh woah oh woah here's to never growing up

Oh woah oh woah ( raise your glass and say )
Here's to never growing up 

-Avril Lavigne 

Memories that Last

Somehow... I remember...

I remember the cupboard I would hide my hair in after I would cut a piece off.

I remember when my mom opened the fridge and the salsa fell out and shattered all over the floor.

I remember dressing up like a bride and throwing my fake bouquet off the top of the stairs.

I remember having a room decorated with Winnie the Pooh characters.

I remember the rocking horse in the basement of my great aunts house.

I remember laughing at my friend because he said blueberry muffin.

I remember the first time I jumped in our swimming pool here in Utah.

I remember who the first person was that said hi to me my first day of school in 3rd grade at my new
school.

I remember the lights being out on my first day of 3rd grade.

I remember breaking my wrist at my friends house.

I remember waking up after I had surgery in my mouth.

I remember watching my dog fall down the stairs.

I remember spraying windex in my eyes.

I remember eating a pepper flavored jelly bean.

I remember the way my grandpas prickly beard felt on my face.

I remember my grandpa laying out in our front yard with only his garments on, and I remember watching him run up the front porch when the sprinklers turned on.

I remember the phone call my aunt and uncle received at 2 in the morning.

I remember the bruises my cousin had on his wrists from the handcuffs.

I remember finding out that my grandpa had died, and I remember dropping the fireworks I had in my hands.

I remember the first girls choice dance I went to.

I remember the way he put his arm around my waist.

I remember the first time he held my hand.

I remember the day he stopped talking to me.

I remember the day you hugged me, and pretending like nothing had happened.

I remember being hurt.

I remember moving on.

I remember being happy.

I remember my brother telling me about all the mistakes he has made.

I remember being scared.

Enlightened

Things I learned at school this week: 

Crap........ I can't remember.

Oh wait.

1. I learned that one girls name 
2. I finally figured out who I like (but I didn't really learn that, I just figured it out) 
3. I learned what a dork is........ Ew......     

Yup.  That's about it. 

S'mores

How to make the best s'more in the world:

1. Get honey maid graham crackers, Hershey's milk chocolate king size bar, and giant marshmallows   
2. Light fire 
3. Crush a whole pack of graham crackers into "dust" 
4. Roast the marshmallow over the red coals in the fire until golden (or however you like your marshmallow) 
5. Melt the chocolate into delicious brown liquid
6. Roll the roasted marshmallow in the chocolate until completely covered
7. Take the marshmallow, covered in chocolate, and roll it around in the graham cracker dust 
8. Enjoy! 
9. AFTER licking the excess grahamcrackermeltedchocolateroastedmarshmallows'morething, use a wet napkin to get the invisible sticky stuff off   

(I just realized that brown liquid does not sound appealing.... AT ALL..... So just melt it into...... melty chocolate)   :)

"And that's the way the cookie crumbles" 

- Jim Carrey (Bruce Almighty)

One of these days

I am going to graduate  

I am going to miss my friends 

I am going to forget about you

I am going to go to college

I am going to get a degree

I am going to travel around the world 

I am going to get engaged

I am going to have a family of my own

I am going to get hurt 

I am going to be successful 

I am going to make mistakes 

I am going to cry 

I am going to plan my children's weddings

I am going to move 

I am going to go to my parents funeral

I am going to have grandchildren  

I am going to lose family members and friends 

I am going to wish for a second chance 

Today just isn't that day

Just put your hand on my heart

I wish he knew how much I love him.  How can I show him?  Do I just tell him?  Wait.... Does he love me?  Is he just pretending?  How am I supposed to know if he does or not?  Do I ask him?  I can't tell him I love him if he doesn't love me.  He is supposed to make the first move.  He has to tell me he loves me, and then I'll tell him.  He doesn't seem like he loves me, but he does at the same time.  

I don't think I can wait any longer.  I'm just going to walk right up to him and tell him!  No....... I will just ask him. I can't ask him. I'll have my friend ask him.  

I can't do this.   

But I have to!!!  I need to know! 

Just breath. 

"I love you."